AbbieGoth

EDIT 1-28: Yesterday I started going through my gallery and started deleting old images. This mainly applies to my traditional art, but will apply to some digital ones as well. Pictures I do not which to entirely delete will be shuffled to the 'Scraps' folder. I have not yet decided if I truly wish to start re-uploading art. We will see.

... Three years later. Oops. Jesus christ has it really been that long?

Well, at least according to my most recently submitted picture, it has been. My god.

I've been contemplating making this journal for at least a month or two now, considering every now and then I think of artists I used to love and admire back in my heyday, wondering to myself "Where are they? I hope they're doing okay. I miss seeing their art." And, I figured that on the off chance that somebody here is wondering the same about me, I've felt obligated to at least say something. I'll try to keep this short. No promises, though.

General life stuff: Graduated high school with honors in '14, not too long after I got engaged. We eventually moved into an apartment together with two of his best friends later that fall. The following February, we adopted a cat. His name is Lil Bear and he will be turning 6 years old in a few days (the 25th.) After a year or so we all moved in with my mother to help her pay bills. Another year passed, and in September the three of us moved back out to a different apartment on literally the other side of town. The place is great and the silence is *fantastic*, but it takes me 2 hours via train and bus to get back to mom's side of town. It kinda sucks.

On a more personal update, I've been struggling with mild depression, heavy anxiety, and executive dysfunction for all three of these years, though the dysfunction not until around graduation. I'm slowly getting better, and haven't had a single anxiety episode in two years. I'm quite proud of that. Unfortunately, this combination of mental problems have been combining to prevent me from regularly making art. Which is one reason I haven't been updating here. Though I suppose the main reason would be that... Well, I've lost interest in this site.

I lost interest in dA a long time ago, for many reasons: Rampant art theft, petty drama, bad community, and probably most of all is because this site will forever have the "OMG SO RANDOM, LULZ!!! XD" impression on me, because that's the stage all of us were at when the community I was in moved here from YouTube (My 'generation' of Sonic OC recolor people who eventually moved onto art). And I still see that attitude here, even in 2017-2018. Not to mention the whole "Can you draw my OC?? :3" attitude along with it. It's just... Not appealing. Granted, Tumblr isn't exactly an even remotely better community by any standard for different reasons, but I digress.

However, I would be lying if I said I hadn't at least briefly thought about coming back - hence my inner need to make this journal in the first place. Though there would definitely be some major changes. Some I've already done, actually. Some odd months ago when I first thought about this, I went through all my journals - some of which dated all the way back to fucking 2009 - and deleted them. All of them. The majority were stupid memes anyways, along with very embarrassing ones with the previously mentioned type style, and just needed to go. I have also started deleting some very, very old pictures - Back when I first started with traditional art and frankly, they were just embarrassing to look at. I still have more to go through, but for the most part I've been leaving up pictures that involved other people's characters, such as gifts, requests, art trades, and point commissions, and I will continue to do so until asked otherwise. If I'm going to start posting again, I only want people to see the nice stuff - not the cringey Darkrai fangirl art I drew back in 2010.

Now, with all of that said... I do want to try getting back into art. Slowly, but surely. Before I go through the rest of my gallery and finish deleting old pictures, anybody who reads this is welcome to browse through and possibly suggest drawing a character of mine that they see and like, and I will consider getting to doodling them. This applies to any and all characters that are in there, including Pokemon, Sonic, original, MLP, etc. Just remember that they have to be mine.

For those of you who wish to keep in contact, or at least keep up with me, I have multiple platforms that I talk and game on. You may have to remind me who you are, though, so please keep that in mind. My memory is just as bad as ever.

Tumblr - FurAffinity (mild nsfw warning) - Flight Rising - Furvilla

I have moved from Skype to Discord, though only people I recognize will get my tag if they ask.

I have a Battle.net and play Overwatch from time to time, though I will only play vs. AI, and no amount of begging or persuading will convince me to try QP. I've been burned out on ESO for a month now, but I'm coming back for sure with the next DLC update, Dragon Bones. (For more info on ESO, please see the official site here.) I also have gotten into FFXIV - I play on the NA server in Malboro, if anybody here also does.

Well, until next time, I suppose. If you have any questions that were not answered here, please feel free to ask.